we are friends forever, best friends fornever

Today is the hardest day of my life, and probably the saddest. Due to a project, I think I lost a friend. Not because I dumped her, but she is the one who didn't want to talk to me and I think she is still angry with me. The project was a failure as me and another 2 group members did not speak loud enough etc. As a result, the teacher and our form teacher scolded us and humiliated us in front of the class. So, during lunch, she was cold towards me. However, what I do not understand is why she treated one of the members who she said did not contribute and speak loud soo nice. I'll leave out the gory details. Even though I realised that she cares more for her grades than friends, I hope that our friendship will resume... Haiz... if only I had a loud voice. If only I hadn't been in the same group as her. If only I hadn't choosen this disappointing school...