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Haiz... I make people angry. How come whenever I grow close to someone, we will eventually go away? It's so sad and bad. It ruins my mood and my life. However, I don't want to regret, I'll try not to. Because this was my choice and I'd have to bear with it for 2 years. Not all parts are bad though, only some social class part. Am I that destestable? This wasn't me in primary school, it's so different. My friends are enjoying themselves, what about me? Am I? Or am I just telling myself that I enjoy it?
Sorry for almost boring you to death,
xox